Why does this always happen to me?

as an psychologist.. this in not a typical anxiety level disorder. its just normal, it can be a talent for you too, if i were your boy i would be proud, normal human brain mostly can produce about 56% of alphabetical rhymes per one system. have you heard about "fliptop" or even rap battles. ex. eminem. mostly around the world knows that. today's generation with that talent can be handy indeed. you can perform or compose songs without stress levels being interrupted, it can be easy for you unlike other normal people. so just for me, be more careful and don't be too rash about it, so you wont be displaced in this society. just have fun and be careful about that virginity of yours which is not, Im not a doctor or OB. hehehe. just be careful about what your speaking of.